these things don't happen to me...

I have a pretty blessed life. I have a wonderful family, my health, a good job, a home, pets, a vehicle that works, great friends....
I see tradgedies happen to people and I think how grateful I am that they don't happen to me. Then something happened which I never thought would happen to me, and I look at the world and think - how does the world just keep going on?
I'm still here. I still have a wonderful family, my health, a good job, a home, pets, a vehicle that works, great friends, and my life has changed forever in spite of it all.
Other people have a LOT worse happen to them, but I just can't get over this pain in my gut, this feeling like I am completely "out" of the world, like everything has changed and nothing will ever be the same.
Then my sons get me up in the morning, I have to go to work, I still have to "live", I just don't quite know how...